That's All She Wrote

I made sure to stick by your side every time things weren't exactly right. No matter what, I  tried my best to cover the distance but sometimes it's not enough. I stand, on the remains, a grave where we laid the foundation of our friendship. Is it really over or just a phase? 'cause I'm out here lonely all by myself, losing count of the days. I miss you & it hurts to admit, there were some mistakes that I made. I hope we meet again. Goodbye love, I've realized you were indeed my twin flame. I can be on my own, you have made me so strong. But, who'd be there if I were to fall? Except you, there's no other shoulder that I've known. The only sight that brought light was yours. How could you be so selfish mi amour?  There's a war raging on, comeback babe, come back home...

Something is different, something feels different. The world is in its place, it seems everything & everyone has managed to find & settle in their designated space. But, if that's the case, then what's different? what's changed? It's me, is it me? If so, how do I feel? I don't seem bothered, rather calm but, is it the calm before the storm. Am I in trouble or am I going to be in soon? I don't know, the message wasn't delivered by the moon.  Have I been suppressing the thoughts, the pain that the trouble has been bringing in for oh so long that now I'm indifferent and gosh oh so numb? Anyways it's a guest, that I'll welcome. Maybe invite in for a little chatter and we will have supper together. Serve tea in a cup that is always filled with tears and cookies made with crumbs of suffering & fears. We can chat till the dawn and in case it decides to change its mind; I'll get hold of it before it's gone. As soon as it gets up to le...

You are a friend. A good friend, a great friend who is always there for their friends. However, are you your own friend? Ask this question to yourself. What did you do the last time you shed tears? Were you there for yourself then? Did you ask yourself not to cry or tell yourself that it’s okay, it’s alright? No? Did you ask yourself to cry your heart out and never to cry again? Were you nice to yourself just like you are to everybody else? Tell you what, I know what you did instead. You started to remind yourself of every other moment when something went wrong. Instead of wiping your tears, you made yourself cry harder over mistakes you didn’t have a say in. I’m pretty sure you are not nice to yourself. You should ask this to yourself, why... Why weren’t you there for yourself? Why weren’t you - your own friend?