Ironically Sudden

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There's nothing, nothing sudden, nothing happens suddenly. It's like, it was always there in the back of your mind, growing inside your head who knows since when.
Then, suddenly within matter of a few seconds, it takes place & you are not ready for it to happen just yet. However, it wasn't ironically sudden rather it was suppose to happen, you just had no idea "when"?
The signs. They are everywhere, always in front of your eyes pacing back and forth, hypnotizing you into believing that they mean nothing. Sometimes, you pick some pieces of it, thinking for a while but they deny and you agree. However, once it gets inside your head it doesn't ever leave and is like a leech, sucking your happiness. It stays and thrives on your thoughts and starts growing like fungi.
It starts to decay the things it surrounds, your brain. Slowly, decomposing your senses. Honestly, slowly; extremely slow.
Until one day, when it takes the form of an elastic band around watermelon aka your head. Finally, it succeeds in bursting the watermelon with all the pressure it was calmly building up within. 
Well, all of us at some point have felt this pressure of elastic bands around our brains. Some, some have the power to tolerate, some exaggerate, some speak up while some suffer in silence until they are completely silenced.
To be honest, some people actually end up making the best pieces of art out of it and some just end.
For the end note, suffer. After all, life is about suffering & yet making the best out of it.

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