A Friend

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You are a friend. A good friend, a great friend who is always there for their friends. However, are you your own friend? Ask this question to yourself. What did you do the last time you shed tears? Were you there for yourself then? Did you ask yourself not to cry or tell yourself that it’s okay, it’s alright? No? Did you ask yourself to cry your heart out and never to cry again? Were you nice to yourself just like you are to everybody else? Tell you what, I know what you did instead. You started to remind yourself of every other moment when something went wrong. Instead of wiping your tears, you made yourself cry harder over mistakes you didn’t have a say in. I’m pretty sure you are not nice to yourself. You should ask this to yourself, why... Why weren’t you there for yourself? Why weren’t you - your own friend?

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  1. Shalini26 February 2022 at 08:57

    Not yet asked myself but seriously after reading this I thought to ask myself.

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